number 2

I JUST LOVE YOU ALOT


We have been fighting alot this few days lately.. i know i havent been a good boyfriend but im trying my best.. i really dont know wad is causing us to fight. i really dont know. over the smallest things also fight wad is wrong with us?! i really dont know.. but baby i just want u to know that i love you! in fact all r quite small things.. i guess in relationships there must be some give n take. i really dont know if i haven given enough or not.. im really really sorry... i know ive been a huge fat ass n im really sorry.. im really really really sorry! okay baby?


ive been taking alot lately but havent been giving thats y i plan to give but u have to help me baby u really do im lost im lost in jungle n there is no way out only your love can lead me to civilization. baby its u who give me happiness its u who give me pain its u who taught me how to love n baby i love you!! im sorry.

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ok well today first damn day of the fucking holidays. i had to go back for remedial. well who cares. then met charissa n found out something that is fucking pissing me off.. im fucking mad. she cried n i just cheered her up cause i dont like seeing her sad. i felt like crying too like a person like that is better that a person like me. im fucking pissed.. its such a fucked up thing to find out i really got nothing to say. i really dont know anymore already what to do n everything. just God show me a sign i really dont know help me. im lost im lonely im everything. it sucks man. its like a 1 way relationship wtf n she keep saying i never show her love this n that this n that.. just fuck it. im sorry to vent my fucking anger but really. i rather get angry here then with her. seriously cant she just see...



FUCK FORGET IT!


im a fucked up loser for life.

mass yesterday was ok i guess.. felicia made alot of mistakes. n yupp.. fucking irritated la.. ahya life is just 1 pain in the ass



ally didi misses u. didi needs jie jie!!

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well.. i dont know term assesment didnt do well.. it sucked.. so far the results i got back was shit.. i must work much much harder if i wanna make it for my o levels next year man.. ahahah.. oh my goodness.. i really dont know i feel lost like i dont know understand... well ok school was boring very little people came to school.. then it was like so quiet.. but it was cool.. hahaha.. well now kinda bored my brother just went for some operation hahhaa he was screaming his lungs out like to the max then yupp i started laughing.. hahaha..

sharlyn, sabrina! miss you guys loads. hahaha smile smile alright? ahaha.. i'm sexy to the core baby! hahaha dont know y i just said that..



my love, my life, my everything
your smile makes me want to sing
everytime you kiss me
my heart just sinks

baby you are everything i wanted
baby i hope you feel the same way
i hope you're not as smelly as jay
but baby you know i love you


sorry my poem not nice.. hahaha i know cannot make it but baby i love with all my heart baby!! i love you k baby! dont leave pls baby dont leave..

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friday haha well i dont know today was quite an okay day i guess.. chem paper was easy but maths was a damn hard paper.. my goodness can die.. dont even have the mood to study anymore la damn crap man.. well ya anyway er mr chng made us do 100 push ups but luckily he let us do it another day.. went to the hall had some talk by some guy name leroy. ahahah cool guy. then went to play soccer at Gavin's house hahaha.. well i dont know wad else to say.. loretta i just watched the CD again.. hahaha power la..



charissa im madly in love with you.. this few days were not really good but baby!! i love you baby baby! i miss you.

your face makes me smile
i would run 1000 miles
my love for you will never end
if it does my heart will bend.

my love and my life
i will love you till im ninty five
it sucks when you're away
cause it seems i can't find my way

it breaks my heart to see you sad
because it makes me feel real bad
you just make my life so full
im madly in love till people think im a fool

baby im crazy
baby im lazy
i cant stop thinking bout you
baby i love you!

Music

Hey hey.. well ive not blogged in like forever.. hahaha well on saturday i forgot wad i did but who cares. hahaha sunday went church with charissa walked to tampines with sabrina she telling me bout someone hahaha ahya.. wad to do.. poor shar.. hahaha then it was left with charissa n me again.. hahaha... at this very moment im in love with marilyn manson after seeing the manson band performing twice im just so in love with manson.. his damn bloddy good.. hahaha then i went tution learnt quite alot then saw loretta can tell she misses me la.. hahaha rite loretta? haha



monday celebrated third month together with charissa hahaha power la then bunch of mats nothing else better to do tried disturbing us in the end got scared n there was bout 9 of them n only 1 of me.. hahaha stupid idiot.. hahaha.. yesterday a good thing happend me n her r ok but i think she still blocked me from msn.. but nvm glad everything is ok.. but never mind la.. hahaha im listening to this is the new shit by manson.. hahaha





baby you know how madly in love i am with you huh baby? do u know? alot baby!! monday was a nice nice nice day baby! i love you i really hope everything will go as planned n be together forever baby!! i love you! hahaha

valentines

ok well it wasnt a real happy day for me yesterday waited for HER for an hour n that sucks... waiting there like a mad man.. yupp.. just cut my hair it sucks big time to the core.. maximum point.. shit man then today in class got punished with nikesh charles keith don n jay.. hahaha stupid la mr chng... i will never forget the the day 181107.. hahaha i dont know y i just love her so much..

loretta if youre reading this must ah do wad i told u to do seriously it will help unless he wants to fight la.. hahaha yupp.. his kind of ppl r like that deary.. hahaha smelly



cherry baby! im crazy over u i go head over heels to do anything with u baby!! pls dont leave!! i miss you i love you baby!! just smile your smile is the sweetest thing i ever saw. baby pls.. i love you with all my heart..

shar cheer up dont think too much ahya parents r like that wad.. wad to do.. dont angry k? dont forget im here im here.. so chill alright relax.. remember the times k?





i love you baby cherry! my love my life my everything.

13/2/08

Well today is wednesday school as usual well today finish at 1 special.. hahaha today stared off bad forgot to bring thermometer then brother dont let us go first.. then had PE cheated 1.6 hahaha but who cares.. ahahaha then played soccer sucked cock man the way i played today. then when shamrock cove buy drink didnt go back class till bout 920 hahaha while we were suppose to be back by 9 hahaha.. then other then that it was ok la.. hahaha..


sunday sunday sang for mass with youth it was ok then family n friends came over to my house i broke a bloody chair hahaha how fat can i be man.. ahahaha sucks to the core well hahaha then yesterday school then tuition then went to meet charissa then had dinner then talked to loretta on the fone till my mother scolded me hahaha...







baby if youre reading this good.. well i really love you alot even when me telling u i love you alot doesnt count baby.. baby i really cant explain how much i love you.. i really dont wanna ever let u go.. i'll just die baby.. pls ok baby.. im sorry i havent been the perfect boyfriend but im trying my best baby im really sorry if i have hurt u in any way n im sorry for being an ass everytime we fight i love you too much to see you hurt.. it just hurts to see u sad baby i love you...



I swear that you dont have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow, to wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your armsand spend every moment I have with you stay up all night with the stars confess all the faith that I had in you
I had in you



Too late, im sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby
For heavens sake I know you're sorry
but you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same Inside I hope you know im dying, with my heart beside mein shattered pieces that may never be replacedand if I died right now, you'd never be the same


I thought with a month of apart,
together would find us an opening
and moonlight would provide the spark
and that i would stumble across the key, or break down the door to your heartForever could see us not you and me and you'd help me out of the darkand id give my heart as an offering




Too late, im sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby
For heavens sake I know you're sorry
but you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same Inside I hope you know im dying, with my heart beside mein shattered pieces that may never be replaced
and if I died right now, you'd never be the same




and I will always remember you as you are right now to meand I will always remember you now remember you now





So sleep alone tonight
with no one here just by your side
sleep alone tonight
how does he feel how does he kiss
how does he taste while hes on your lips
I cant forget youI know you want me to want youi want to
But i cant forget you so when this is over dont blow your composure baby
I cant forget youI know you want me to want you
I want to...