number 2

I JUST LOVE YOU ALOT


We have been fighting alot this few days lately.. i know i havent been a good boyfriend but im trying my best.. i really dont know wad is causing us to fight. i really dont know. over the smallest things also fight wad is wrong with us?! i really dont know.. but baby i just want u to know that i love you! in fact all r quite small things.. i guess in relationships there must be some give n take. i really dont know if i haven given enough or not.. im really really sorry... i know ive been a huge fat ass n im really sorry.. im really really really sorry! okay baby?


ive been taking alot lately but havent been giving thats y i plan to give but u have to help me baby u really do im lost im lost in jungle n there is no way out only your love can lead me to civilization. baby its u who give me happiness its u who give me pain its u who taught me how to love n baby i love you!! im sorry.

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ok well today first damn day of the fucking holidays. i had to go back for remedial. well who cares. then met charissa n found out something that is fucking pissing me off.. im fucking mad. she cried n i just cheered her up cause i dont like seeing her sad. i felt like crying too like a person like that is better that a person like me. im fucking pissed.. its such a fucked up thing to find out i really got nothing to say. i really dont know anymore already what to do n everything. just God show me a sign i really dont know help me. im lost im lonely im everything. it sucks man. its like a 1 way relationship wtf n she keep saying i never show her love this n that this n that.. just fuck it. im sorry to vent my fucking anger but really. i rather get angry here then with her. seriously cant she just see...



FUCK FORGET IT!


im a fucked up loser for life.

mass yesterday was ok i guess.. felicia made alot of mistakes. n yupp.. fucking irritated la.. ahya life is just 1 pain in the ass



ally didi misses u. didi needs jie jie!!

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well.. i dont know term assesment didnt do well.. it sucked.. so far the results i got back was shit.. i must work much much harder if i wanna make it for my o levels next year man.. ahahah.. oh my goodness.. i really dont know i feel lost like i dont know understand... well ok school was boring very little people came to school.. then it was like so quiet.. but it was cool.. hahaha.. well now kinda bored my brother just went for some operation hahhaa he was screaming his lungs out like to the max then yupp i started laughing.. hahaha..

sharlyn, sabrina! miss you guys loads. hahaha smile smile alright? ahaha.. i'm sexy to the core baby! hahaha dont know y i just said that..



my love, my life, my everything
your smile makes me want to sing
everytime you kiss me
my heart just sinks

baby you are everything i wanted
baby i hope you feel the same way
i hope you're not as smelly as jay
but baby you know i love you


sorry my poem not nice.. hahaha i know cannot make it but baby i love with all my heart baby!! i love you k baby! dont leave pls baby dont leave..

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friday haha well i dont know today was quite an okay day i guess.. chem paper was easy but maths was a damn hard paper.. my goodness can die.. dont even have the mood to study anymore la damn crap man.. well ya anyway er mr chng made us do 100 push ups but luckily he let us do it another day.. went to the hall had some talk by some guy name leroy. ahahah cool guy. then went to play soccer at Gavin's house hahaha.. well i dont know wad else to say.. loretta i just watched the CD again.. hahaha power la..



charissa im madly in love with you.. this few days were not really good but baby!! i love you baby baby! i miss you.

your face makes me smile
i would run 1000 miles
my love for you will never end
if it does my heart will bend.

my love and my life
i will love you till im ninty five
it sucks when you're away
cause it seems i can't find my way

it breaks my heart to see you sad
because it makes me feel real bad
you just make my life so full
im madly in love till people think im a fool

baby im crazy
baby im lazy
i cant stop thinking bout you
baby i love you!

Music

Hey hey.. well ive not blogged in like forever.. hahaha well on saturday i forgot wad i did but who cares. hahaha sunday went church with charissa walked to tampines with sabrina she telling me bout someone hahaha ahya.. wad to do.. poor shar.. hahaha then it was left with charissa n me again.. hahaha... at this very moment im in love with marilyn manson after seeing the manson band performing twice im just so in love with manson.. his damn bloddy good.. hahaha then i went tution learnt quite alot then saw loretta can tell she misses me la.. hahaha rite loretta? haha



monday celebrated third month together with charissa hahaha power la then bunch of mats nothing else better to do tried disturbing us in the end got scared n there was bout 9 of them n only 1 of me.. hahaha stupid idiot.. hahaha.. yesterday a good thing happend me n her r ok but i think she still blocked me from msn.. but nvm glad everything is ok.. but never mind la.. hahaha im listening to this is the new shit by manson.. hahaha





baby you know how madly in love i am with you huh baby? do u know? alot baby!! monday was a nice nice nice day baby! i love you i really hope everything will go as planned n be together forever baby!! i love you! hahaha

valentines

ok well it wasnt a real happy day for me yesterday waited for HER for an hour n that sucks... waiting there like a mad man.. yupp.. just cut my hair it sucks big time to the core.. maximum point.. shit man then today in class got punished with nikesh charles keith don n jay.. hahaha stupid la mr chng... i will never forget the the day 181107.. hahaha i dont know y i just love her so much..

loretta if youre reading this must ah do wad i told u to do seriously it will help unless he wants to fight la.. hahaha yupp.. his kind of ppl r like that deary.. hahaha smelly



cherry baby! im crazy over u i go head over heels to do anything with u baby!! pls dont leave!! i miss you i love you baby!! just smile your smile is the sweetest thing i ever saw. baby pls.. i love you with all my heart..

shar cheer up dont think too much ahya parents r like that wad.. wad to do.. dont angry k? dont forget im here im here.. so chill alright relax.. remember the times k?





i love you baby cherry! my love my life my everything.

13/2/08

Well today is wednesday school as usual well today finish at 1 special.. hahaha today stared off bad forgot to bring thermometer then brother dont let us go first.. then had PE cheated 1.6 hahaha but who cares.. ahahaha then played soccer sucked cock man the way i played today. then when shamrock cove buy drink didnt go back class till bout 920 hahaha while we were suppose to be back by 9 hahaha.. then other then that it was ok la.. hahaha..


sunday sunday sang for mass with youth it was ok then family n friends came over to my house i broke a bloody chair hahaha how fat can i be man.. ahahaha sucks to the core well hahaha then yesterday school then tuition then went to meet charissa then had dinner then talked to loretta on the fone till my mother scolded me hahaha...







baby if youre reading this good.. well i really love you alot even when me telling u i love you alot doesnt count baby.. baby i really cant explain how much i love you.. i really dont wanna ever let u go.. i'll just die baby.. pls ok baby.. im sorry i havent been the perfect boyfriend but im trying my best baby im really sorry if i have hurt u in any way n im sorry for being an ass everytime we fight i love you too much to see you hurt.. it just hurts to see u sad baby i love you...



I swear that you dont have to go
I thought we could wait for the fireworks
I thought we could wait for the snow, to wash over Georgia and kill the hurt
I thought I could live in your armsand spend every moment I have with you stay up all night with the stars confess all the faith that I had in you
I had in you



Too late, im sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby
For heavens sake I know you're sorry
but you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same Inside I hope you know im dying, with my heart beside mein shattered pieces that may never be replacedand if I died right now, you'd never be the same


I thought with a month of apart,
together would find us an opening
and moonlight would provide the spark
and that i would stumble across the key, or break down the door to your heartForever could see us not you and me and you'd help me out of the darkand id give my heart as an offering




Too late, im sure and lonely
Another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words, so sing along for me baby
For heavens sake I know you're sorry
but you won't stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same Inside I hope you know im dying, with my heart beside mein shattered pieces that may never be replaced
and if I died right now, you'd never be the same




and I will always remember you as you are right now to meand I will always remember you now remember you now





So sleep alone tonight
with no one here just by your side
sleep alone tonight
how does he feel how does he kiss
how does he taste while hes on your lips
I cant forget youI know you want me to want youi want to
But i cant forget you so when this is over dont blow your composure baby
I cant forget youI know you want me to want you
I want to...

9/2/08

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE!


well now back to business.. ahahaha past few days went visiting..
first day relatives came over to my house hahah funny played cards.. dad gave me money but never give him back.. then at night went to uncle long's house.. hahah well it was ok.. lost money but overall that day won money..
second day went to ah kim's house hahaha funny man yi hong was sick poor boy.. then just watched tv for 3 hours then ate then watch tv then gambled hahaha funny... eating people's money like nobody's business.. hahaha then at night went to uncle vincent's house hahaha won plenty of money there but lost money for parents. hahaha well wad to do thats part of gambling..
third day keith came over, brother drove us to white sands.. met charles alvis nikesh faizal n then headed to mrs choo's house.. keith won money n so did charles n they all said the money they won(less than $20) they wanna go shopping at topman.. hahaha funny.. first time we could scold vulgarities infront of mrs choo so funny we played blackjack as usual.. lost abit of money but its ok.. ahaha then came home bathe watch tv n left for sharlyn's party.. hahaha so nonsence la hahaha didnt really do much but it was quite fun though hahah the camwhoring was like mad with vic shar n me hahaha super nice n funny.. hahaha it was 11pm n they were screaming their lungs out like as if the world was going to end at that very moment.. just reached home talked to my baby on the fone as usual.. u know hahaha the usual..



SHAR I WANT THE PHOTOS!!

ok now time to talk serious well i just dont like the fact that she is dreaming of that person.. well i really love her n i dont wanna let her go baby i miss you i love you.. youre my life i cant imagine life without u at this very moment baby pls dont go??







When i see your smile
tears role down my face
i cant replace
now that ive stronger
ive figured out
how this world turns cold
and it breaks thru my soul
and i know i'll find
deep inside me i can be the one


(CHORUS)
i will never let you fall(let you fall)
i'll stand up with you foever
i'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven

its ok..


seasons are changing
waves are crashing
stars are falling out for us
days grow longer
nights grow shorter
i cant show you i'll be the One



(REPEAT CHORUS)



CAUSE YOUR MY!
YOURE MY
MY TRUE LOVE
MY WHOLE HEART
PLEASE DONT THROW THAT AWAY



CAUSE IM HERE
FOR YOU
PLEASE DONT WALK AWAY NOW
PLEASE TELL ME YOU'LL STAY..

BABY PLS DONT GO I LOVE YOU BABY IM REALLY AFRAID THAT I'LL LOSE YOU SOMEDAY PLS BABY..

I LOVE YOU! :D

alright i'll never ever forget this time ever.. this gig was alright i guess.. but who cares.. after the performance i saw that someone that i called bitch she was with tracy hugged Tracy n just walked off couldnt be bothered... everyone feels she has changed but we'll see la.. i mean like there is not point i see no point keeping this friendship.. benji good job with singing.. ahahah

well sunday i have officially quit choir well wad to do.. i mean this time she went to far i mean ya u wanna scold for out mistakes can but u see the way she puts things is as if we're singing for her n ya.. y would she feel embarassed if we make mistakes rite? y? if she makes mistakes we would have to bear with it n just sing along.. cannot scold her cannot do anything.. we're singing for God not for u.. so ya get that in your head.. call me childish, arrogant... just think k? i cant be bothered with your nonsense la.. bullshit.. but seriously im goona miss those times.. carolling choir n everything but wad to do no choice la..

home. bored

well things just sux school was alright today.. kinda boring kinda miss gavin too.. at this very moment jay is sitting behind me playing with my brother's guitar hahaha.. wad a joker. hahah havent done it in 4days n counting hahaha so far so good.. havent met her since tuesday i miss her already n its just 2 days hahaha... thats how much i love her hahaha. anyhow only..


continue now talking bout someone else this person i hate alot.. fucking say we're a family not even a family.. never even message me that got something at night im gonna fucking quit la.. irritating la.. ok im gonna quit if u know who this person is tell me alrite? hahaha

Confirm.

today tuesday school as usual but after went to play pool at shamrock cove in school n was late for tuition.. tuition was cool i think.. learnt abit.. hahaha i think or maybe alot.. erm.. yesterday monday sorry didnt blog bout yesterday. well yesterday was school nothing exciting i think. then today after tuition went to meet charissa sat with her at the bus interchange for almost a hour then saw jay waiting for bus.. haha damn funny la he haha yupp. well i just realised the friendship between me n her cannot be helped already.




i alwaya thought that the 9th of june was a good day where i made a very good friend that would be by my side forever.. but nope.. well.. i dont know wad to say bout her.. she is just putting love before friends n that just sucks if i dont see her during the gig i wont talk to her not even a word of hi.. she is such a bitch u know.. its just damn sad la.. im glad i have ppl like loretta sharlyn charissa who understands how i feel it just sucks knowing a person like that.. this shows our friendship is a confirm gonner already.. it sucks alot la..
it really matters alot to me that they are by myside.. i love them alot.. not like that bitch she is just so irritating la.. cant believe it la... i really think she used us la.. ohya 1 more person keith.. hahaha he has also been trying to keep the friendship but wad to do she is a real bitch la.. hahaha wad a bitch she is fucking bitch.. really bitch for life..




JUST 2 TIME HER PLEASE LET HER LEARN HER LESSON REAL BITCH LA!

Sundays. Sadness.

Well.. sunday there was church.. it started of like shit.. told charissa that i'll see her in church but she dont want then she said meet in the bus but then when i passed her stop she didnt come up i was like 1 dog.. which sucks.. ahya.. then after that she said she wanted to meet then i called her she was still in class then after mass she said she had to go for doctors.. ahya yupp.. damn sucked yesterday ah ya.. then damn rubbish la.. then went tuition it was ok laughed alot.. damn funny azman is damn funny hahaha always disturb ppl.. ahaha


















this continues.. ahya well she is a real bitch.. she isnt doing shit but glad she took me off cause its an embarressment for me to be on her featured like 1 mad dog la.. stupid la n irritating weird la freaking bitch.. well.. thats how much i hate her now.. well u guys think if u were in my shoes but i dont seem to tell them off cause they r first timers hopefully they learn n not repeat the same mistake la.. yupp.. guess wad? i didnt smoke today. haha power or not?

Continue.

Life just has to continue i guess after wad has happened... cant say much.. today uncle sunny came over to fix somethings la.. hahah funny.. well didnt finish till bout 620.. poor fellas hahaha then 330 had tuition finish at 5.. now going for practise.. well everything is ok with me n my baby!! missing her loads.. hahaha so happy.. but everything is not ok with me n that bitch... wad to do.. cannot do anything already hahaha








well lets see she used loretta's n my name to meet him i cant believe she did that i just feel like slapping her face.. her pimpled face.. im sorry bro if that hurt u but u know how it feels to do this kind thing? u know or not? it sucks man big time! she is always like that... i wont be surprised is she just used me to get closer to him this is damn shit up if u know who u r just get lost from my life youre not worth a single second... damn irritating la she.. idiot!!

Gone

firstly.. school was kinda boring. n i just realised that school is slower on fridays dont know y but ya.. this sucks.. after that went to meet charissa that sucked.. well then after went home damn sad kinda emoing. but who cares.. life is short we should enjoy it more.. got busted by gerard n his band.. suppose to follow them jamming but in the end never book that sucked to the max was all ready n didnt do shit.. met loretta talked alot of rubbish.. she managed to cheer me up.. thats good.. hahaha.. met gerard started bringing up to past n everything made me really think.. jamming was kinda quiet.. as usual ulric with the most energy after going for the converse sell.. power la ulric!! everybody else was quiet.. gerard is always quiet.. hahaha STAMMER.. matt was tired after tennis n me just shit up crap.. went home.. n now its 11 plus... benji couldnt make it.. sadness...









OK this is where it all starts... she is now off my mind.. she doesnt deserve to be on my featured.. she doesnt deserve anything from me.. family? wad family when we dont talk at all n say that u scared i busted u all say that nvm go talk to him wtf.. this is crap... u dont even bother doing shit so why the hell should i bother u know how hurting it is? u know or not? it sucks dick.. i really dont know wad to say bout u already la.. if u know who u r think bout it.. i have nothing else to say.. all i know is life is a bitch... fucked up bitch!